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Finally, a Break

Ok, I am alive guys, I promise!

Lol, as mentioned before, work has been a bit crazed these last couple of days. A big presentation needed to be put together from our department for the big boss – and since I apparently assemble the nicest looking presentations, guess who has been working on that for 2.5 days? Yep, that’d be me.

The big presentation happens at 2pm today, so I might be working on it more before then (in fact I’d bet on it), but as I just sent draft #4 to my boss, I figure I have a couple of minutes to read and write in blog land. 🙂

So, Phase 6!

Phase 6 of Allan‘s plan is hard – I won’t begin to lie about it. But it is also easy, as I believe he pointed out yesterday. If you are good at eating the same thing every day, then you are set. This works for me, as I work best with a routine, and not having to think about calorie counting and choices for a few days is actually very nice. It’s all laid out, you don’t have to worry about measuring or counting…unless counting to 1 is hard. 😉

But, it’s also very hard. I really don’t think that I could have gone straight from eating like a fatty to this – so Allan, much respect to you for that!  It’s a shock to a system for sure. The fact that I’ve been living on 1200 cals or less per day since January I think definitely helped me transition to this. But it’s also like starting over again.

When I first started Allan’s now-defunct Phase 4 in January, there were nights that I went to bed hungry. I think it lasted about a week, maybe 2 weeks. This is definitely a reminder to me of that time. It’s hard, there are lots of tummy rumbles, but since I’m in a good place mentally, these are not bothering me – it makes me feel like something’s happening, you know?

Of course, the hardest part of this is coming up. Weekend’s are always hard. Going to my parents house tonight will be hard. Going to Abilene to see Brad (who is not on Phase 6!) and friends this weekend will be hard.

But, that just reminds me of the following quote, which I saw on a blog somewhere and wrote down…sorry I don’t remember who it came from though!

Losing Weight is Hard.
Staying Fat is Hard.
Choose Your Hard.

So, there you have it. I’ll continue to embrace the hard, because looking in my closet and not having hardly any choices because all my clothes are too big just made my morning! 😀



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Spaghetti Squash and a New Challenge!

So I’m really liking my brother’s new girlfriend more and more! Not only does she keep my brother occupied and out of the house on many days, but she also went to culinary school! I don’t know if you remember, but I can’t cook…I can bake, but cooking has always been somewhat of a mystery to me, unless I have very specific instructions.

My brother’s girlfriend also had gastric bypass surgery years ago, and learned to cook many healthy things and has maintained her weight for years.

So, when I brought up a couple of weekends ago that I’d never had spaghetti squash, and had been apprehensive to try and make it on my own, she made it her mission to show me how it is done!

Three simple ingredients: 1 spaghetti squash, sliced mushrooms, and canned diced tomatoes

Instructions are as follows:

Cut a spaghetti squash into quarters, then place shell side up on a greased (pam) cookie sheet and bake for 40 minutes or so at around 425. Once you can put a fork into the inside and feel that it’s loosened, it’s done baking.

Let the squash cool, then just drag a fork along the insides into a saucepan, it comes off easily and looks just like angel hair pasta

Place the saucepan over medium heat, add the can of tomatoes (we used garlic, basil and oregano flavored) with the juice, and a package of sliced mushrooms. Heat until all ingredients are warm and the juice reduces.

Jenn (the GF) said that she adds other stuff all the time, spinach, turkey meat, or whatever she's in the mood for

You can serve the dish with a little cheese sprinkled on top, and have two bowls for only 200 calories total – 100 of which is the cheese!

I hope my brother decides to keep his girlfriend! If not, I may have to chase her… 😉

Also, I found another challenge out there that I want to participate in for spring. I’m still in Allan‘s challenge of course, guns blazing, this is a different type of challenge which involves setting goals (which don’t have to be necessarily weight loss related), and answering questions each week. I’ve been curious about this challenge from seeing the WWW challenge posts over on Mary’s blog, and finally traced the source back to Amy over at Life’s Journey with a Smile. And it seems my timing was great, because she’s starting a new challenge on Monday called the Spring Fever Challenge. This challenge is similar to the WWW challenge, so I need to come up with at least 5 goals, and I’ll be posting my updates here on my progress.

Anywho, I think it’s a cute idea and I’m looking forward to it! I’ll link her banner here in case you’re interested as well – the sign up deadline is Friday.


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Monday Quickie!

Work continues to slam me, but just thought I’d mention a few things…

  • Last week’s weight loss = 6 pounds – YAYAYAYAYAY!
  • I’m 1 pound away from having lost 10% of my body weight that I started with on Jan 1, 2011!
  • I can jog a 13:02 minute mile!
  • Having your husband live 150 miles away and only seeing him every other weekend still sucks… 😦
  • Seeing the changes in your husband because you only get to see him every other weekend is kinda neat! 😀
  • I’m 87 pounds away from my ultimate goal (150), and only 38 pounds away from my biggest goal…under 200!
  • I can do this, I AM doing this! I’m doing this without gimmicks or fad diets, or shelling out for a gym membership. I’m just listening to some advice from a reforming fattie, and being smart instead of sold. How insane am I?!

Ok, back to work now. 🙂

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Not that it bothers me, well I guess on some levels it does or I wouldn’t be posting about it…but does anyone actually read this blog? I mean, I see visitors, but hardly ever have comments…I figure I’m just boring.

Anywho, today is another work at home day. The roads are better, but I’m not going to risk it, especially since my boss says it’s alright to stay home. My insane husband decided to drive in from Abilene last night because his classes were canceled for today (and he only has one Friday class), despite me telling him not to. The result? A 150 mile trip that usually takes 2.5 to 3 hours ended up taking him 10. He ended up sitting on the freeway stopped for about 4 hours because of an accident, wedged between 18-wheelers at night. The rest of it was slow going over icy roads. He’s happy because he only did one near-360 in his car. I kicked him. And then hugged him because it was good seeing him after 2 weeks without him.

He’s still stupid for doing that.

Food is going well, I’m trying to stay under 800 calories the rest of this week because of my muffin guilt. Surprisingly, I’ve found it not too hard, even though I’ve been stuck at home, which is always a good snacking spot. No intense hunger, I think the river of water I’m taking in definitely helps curb that. The real challenge will be tomorrow – I’ll be going in to work, and my boss wants to take us out to lunch (which looks like is becoming his Friday tradition), and they will all eat a lot – probably Mexican food…and there will be beer.


Luckily enough Brad is invited, and he is a good accountability guy in a restaurant.

Anyway, if anyone is actually reading, hello, I hope you feel inclined to say something sometime. If not, stalk away, I’ll remain boring as always. 😉


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Water Water Everywhere

…and I’m drinking every drop! O.o

The trip to Abilene and back is done, although last night I must say I was slamming down water as much as I could before bed. I feel that my body now sleepwalks to the bathroom several times a night…I remember 3 or 4 of them… 😉

To keep up with my water intake at work, I’ve created a little checklist. I know that if I drink 6 bottles at work throughout the day, plus my usual two cups of coffee, I only have to drink one big bottle at night, and hopefully save a couple of those bathroom trips.

Below, because my blog is way too devoid of pics, and because I’m playing with my new favorite photography app, I give you, THE LIST!

Water List

Oh yeah, compelling, isn’t it? Sorry, I’ll work on getting more interesting photos to place on the blog…can’t say when/if I’ll be brave enough to put a pic of me up…yikes!

Anyway, plan is still going great – low cal is getting easier…haven’t had any red meat or chicken in almost 3 weeks, don’t really miss it. Eggs are still tasting good, and shrimp are still my friend…I need to find more good sources of protein though, it’s still too easy to fall back to a bowl of oatmeal or cereal in a pinch, and I am trying to cut out as much of that junk as possible. If anyone has any good protein suggestions, please let me know!

Ok, back to the grind, I’ll leave you with today’s food porn (sorry Allan, I just love that phrase and have to use it!), from the incessant flow of Super Bowl recipes that I have to post out to our websites.

Field of Guacamole

Mmmm…guacamole… 😉


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So I’ve read my fair share of materials and blogs that talk about thinking of food as fuel. That we are what we eat, the normal blah blahs.

Well, I was slapped in the face with just how off balance your body can be when you run on empty today.

It wasn’t intentional, but I found myself today on the new-found little walking path near the house on total empty.

Flash back to this morning, where I skipped breakfast on my way out the door to work (which is the norm, I have always been one of those that had to force myself to eat breakfast…which from what I’ve read is a fatty thing). Then, my co-worker who had told me that we’d do lunch together in the cafeteria decided that instead, let’s just go ahead and leave early for the holiday. So, I slammed a couple of crackers down my throat before driving the 25 mile trek home. By the time I arrived it was 1:30, and my dear husband had made me sandwich, which I devoured in probably 5 minutes.

Shortly after, I needed a nap.

Yes, a nap.

And FYI – I NEVER take naps. I was that kid in day care that would never go to sleep. The teachers hated me because I cut all their smoke breaks short. So me + napping is just WEIRD.

I woke up an hour later, threw on my jogging pants and headed out the door with hubby. We walked the first mile in a nice leisurely pace, and then as normal he took off jogging the 2nd mile, we’d meet up after.

Well, inspired by the whole starting over thing, and being the impatient person that I am, I decided I’d do a bit of jogging too. Yeah, that lasted about maybe 1/4 of a mile (and remember if you will, that my jogging is equal to a little old man shuffle).

I started to walk, the breathing hard and the soreness was normal…and then I hit IT. I don’t know quite how to describe what IT is, I guess you could call it a wall, but that’s usually used to describe complete failure in generally healthy running people. But I guess if there is a fatty equivalent to a wall when you’re basically pacing a 20 minute mile, then baby that’s what happened. I stopped.

You know that shot that they do in the movies when something dramatic is happening. That shot where they are zooming up on a person or thing, while trucking the camera back at the same time…it’s usually accompanied by some disconcerting strings and is to give the viewer an overall disoriented feeling. Yeah, that’s what I was seeing as I looked out over the little wooded area next to the trail.

“Well that’s dramatic,” I thought to myself, and starting walking again before I freaked myself out and passed out. It was one of the longest miles I’ve ever walked. Luckily my better (and more in shape) half met me when I had about a quarter of a mile to go and just having him there spurred me on. It’s gonna suck when school starts back up in a week and he has to go back.

I finally made it back to my front door, made a beeline for the kitchen, drank a ginormous glass of water and fixed myself a PB&J sandwhich.

And let me tell you, it was the best PB&J I’ve ever eaten. Ever. Maybe not the best choice, but I just had to have SOMETHING for gas.

So, lesson learned. No neglecting the fuel.

After I felt human again, ended the day well, 81 situps on the 200situps plan, 44 more evil squats on the 200squats madness. Tomorrow I expect there will be more screaming when trying to sit or stand.

I’ve done much reading today. Finally caught up on Jae’s wonderful blog, and through her’s I also found Allan’s blog. So much reading and much to digest. I am formulating my plan, I just have to have a long talk with the Dark Passenger and tell her to shut up, that I can and will do this.

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