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Well Now I HAVE To…

I registered today for my first 5k since like…2007?

The Color Run!

The Color Run!

Yay! My friend Christi told me about the race and suggested that we plan to go a couple of weeks ago. I told her that I’d have to wait until today (pay day) to register…which gave me a bit over a week to decide. I’ve been a bit on the fence, because running is not really my strong suit…from breaking my foot to not being able to really breathe, etc…plus I’m still over 240 freaking pounds. But, I as I read recently on Katie’s blog (LOVE her blog, I’ve been reading the whole thing from the beginning!), signing up for a race is a good way to stay motivated to actually run. Don’t you love our team name? We’re the Meandering Monochromes! 😉

The race is 10 weeks away, and the Couch to 5k plan takes 9 weeks to complete. So, starting Monday, I’m in training. I’m so excited, this race looks Amazing!

I’ve been having such a hard time working out lately, Brad’s late nights keep being late, and I am so out of energy after chasing a 1 year old around the house all evening. So, it’s come down to the decision that I should have made a month ago – I’m going to have to commit to getting up early. I HATE waking up early. Hate with about as capital and H as you can get. But, I figure that even if I have to get up to go to the YMCA to work out on the treadmill, I’d still only have to wake up about 45 minutes earlier than I do already.

(still hate it)

I plan on just running around my neighborhood, since 1 lap around our little division is just a little bit over exactly 1 mile.

(did i mention the hate bit?)

Ok, I’ll stop being snarky now, I’ve just got to work through my inner temper-tantrum throwing three year old and just do what is best. Besides, that means that I don’t have to have anxiety all day wondering how I’m going to fit in a workout, right?

We are going to my parents’ house tonight, so I’m going to bug out of work a little early, go home to pack, and then wait for Brad to get off work so we can go. My parents’ aren’t going to be able to make it to Reagan’s birthday party here next week (my dad is on oxygen and isn’t up to traveling yet), so we’re going to have a February birthdays party there tomorrow. My brother is Feb 1, Rea is Feb 21, and then my dad is Feb 22. I’m looking forward to it, but I could also lay down and go to sleep right now, my allergies are killing me! I don’t to be stuck in a car for 2 hours today…

I’m so whiny today, aren’t I!? Ugh!

What about you guys? Any fun weekend plans?


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Still on Track

I’ve been horrible at blogging (which seems to be an ongoing theme in the last year…does having children do that??), but I’ve been great and on plan in regards to eating! The weight is definitely coming off slower this time around, as I try to do this in a healthy and “real life” way…but I’m down 19 pounds already, so I’m feeling great about it!

I’ve been participating in some Instagram challenges (you can find me on Instagram as user verdouxkai):

Apparently planks were sent to Earth by Satan for torture...

Apparently planks were sent to Earth by Satan for torture…

The “challenges” are just to do a plank and a wall sit each day and record your time. I just take a screenshot with my phone and then upload to Instacollage to get them both on the same image. My times have been going up (though slowly!), and so it’s a nice little victory, I try to go up at least by 1 second…the plank is extremely difficult for me, so 1 second is just fine as a goal for me, lol!

My trying a new recipe per week has been going ok – last week was a little harder just because I wanted to try a slow cooker recipe…I bought all the ingredients, picked the day to do it on…and then realized that we had lost our slow cooker in the last move! I had the dish, but the part it sits in was gone. I vaguely remember that we must have thrown it away because the cord was damaged, but I was so mad! I didn’t have money in the budget to run out and buy one. Since some of the ingredients would go bad before I could buy one, Brad actually ended up making up a nice chicken and rice dish for us. So, technically I didn’t make something new, but we tried something new, lol!

One thing I DID make since my last post was Paleo Pancakes!

Easy to mix, but also easy to burn, so watch out!

Easy to mix, but also easy to burn, so watch out!

I found these on the web a while back and decided to try it one Saturday morning. I thought they were tasty, but I definitely want to try them again and play with it a bit. The mix came together really easily, but these suckers BURN really easily too. I don’t have a new griddle yet (another move victim), so I had to do it in a frying pan. I think a griddle will help the burning issue a lot! Here is the recipe if anyone is interested:


  • 2 bananas
  • 1 egg
  • 1 tablespoon of nut butter (I used Almond Butter, but it’s expensive!)
  • 1 tsp Cinnamon (optional)


Mash the bananas in a bowl. Add the egg and almond butter and cinnamon. Mix until combined. Heat a frying pan (or griddle!) on medium heat and use 1/4 cup measuring cup to pour each pancake. Once you start seeing bubbles on the pancakes, flip them. (I would definitely keep checking though, I never seemed to see bubbles and when I finally did flip one, they were burned!)

This recipe makes about 6 or 7 small pancakes. They aren’t as “fluffy” as pancakes, and of course taste a lot like banana. I topped mine with a tiny bit of honey, and Brad used regular maple syrup. Reagan just smashed them up and turned it back in to goo…which is pretty much normal these days.

"What? Doesn't everyone eat this way?"

“What? Doesn’t everyone eat this way?”

Anywho, I just wanted to reach out and tap the blogging land to let you know that I’m still alive! Mothers: have you found that having young children saps your time to blog, etc? I need balance ideas!


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Squats + Wall Sit = PAIN!

So, back in the land of 2011 when I was a workout machine and not pregnant yet, I did lots of squats. I use the 200 Squats app and I really enjoyed it! I was up to week 6 when I stopped, which is the last week of the program…so I was a squatting fool! So on Tuesday while I was single-momming it as Brad worked late and was watching The Biggest Loser, what did I decide to do?

Hell yeah, let’s do some squats!

And did I start back at week one like a smart person? Nope. I decided I’d be all bad ass about it and start at Week 3. Week 3 includes 62 squats divided out across 5 sets…so that’s like 10-12 squats per set. That didn’t sound bad at all.

And now today, for the second day in a row, I am walking around stiff-legged like my toddler and screaming when I sit down to use the toilet from the knife-twisting pain in my thighs. My husband finds this amusing, and me, not so much…

Add on to that the fact that I decided to do a Wall Sit…and made it about 19.6 seconds before having to give up. And now I am in SO MUCH PAIN.

Food it good, water is good…pain is HORRID.

I’m off to find more Tylenol…

(And yes, I’m damn proud of the pain and will be doing squats again as soon as I can stand it!) 😛

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Last night my dear husband was kind enough (and got home from work at a normal time, so was able) to watch Reagan for me for an hour so I could steal a workout. I say “kind enough” as if he’s some sort of ogre who doesn’t pull his weight! Brad is actually an amazing husband, and an even better father. His dad was a deadbeat, so I think it’s very important to him to be incredibly involved with Rea.

But I digress. Suffice it to say I felt guilty for going and Brad told me to shut up and get out and work out. 😛

And I did.

And it was HARD. The second workout is kind of like the the third day of dieting. It’s usually a pretty crappy experience which takes a LOT of mental willpower to get it done.

But I did! Only another 30 minutes on the elliptical. I was huffing and puffing like an 80 year old smoker at about 10 minutes in. I was so much tougher than it was on Saturday. I was THIS close to stopping at 20 minutes, but I just stopped for about 20 seconds, took a drink, and mentally just said “no, we’re doing this.”

I am not so sore today, but I think tomorrow I’ll be hobbling like that 80 year old smokers mom.  😛

Some workout pics for your viewing pleasure…


I put my jacket up in a locker…and chose a number that would definitely remember! My starting weight…262

workout complete

Yay for another complete workout! Of course MyFitnessPal gave me more calories burned: 573


Post-workout face. It strategically hides my bad workout hair (hair is too short to wear a ponytail, so it’s a bandana basically), and my fat chin.

So that’s my 2nd workout experience. Yay for getting out again! I don’t know when I’ll be able to get out again this week yet, but I’m hoping to be able to go a third time before going out of town this weekend! 🙂

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Heck Yes I Did!

I totally went to the gym and worked out. Finally!

On Saturday morning I resolved myself that THAT would be the freaking day I finally make my 250+ pounds of fat matter get up, out and moving. Of course my dear husband decided he needed to go in to the office and get some things taken care of that day, so I figured it would be the perfect opportunity to get out myself, take Little Miss and try out the YMCA that I had signed up for a million years ago. I even went in to the Y on Friday on my way home from work to get a proper tour so that I would feel comfortable with where I needed to drop her off, where all the equipment was, etc. I didn’t feel brave enough to go swimming yet, but I figured I would work on an elliptical for a bit.

So cue Saturday morning, as hubby heads out the door for work, I fix Rea a bottle so she won’t get hungry while I’m gone and set her up in the living room eating while I grab her diaper bag and make sure she’s got all she needs. Brad left around 10am, and I was 99% sure that their day care was open until about 1pm, which would give me a good 2 hours to work out, cool down, and drop off/pick up Little Miss.

Until I saw the fridge. I had posted several of the YMCA’s schedules to the side of the refrigerator so I could have them handy. Pool hours, class schedules…day care…CRAP! That’s when I saw that the day care was only open until noon on Saturdays. It’s already nearly 20 after 10am. Cue me now running around my house like a crazy person! Grabbing diaper bag, daughter, water, keys, phone and bolting out the door.

I seriously came SO close to just say the heck with the whole thing, but I knew 30 minutes is better than NO minutes.

And it was. I was able to get 30 minutes on an elliptical, and I guess the fact that I was running around like a crazy person made my fear of leaving Rea in a strange new day care not nearly as bad. And she did great, of course. The second I set her down she was off and running to play and didn’t even notice my leaving…or even my return!

And my arse and thighs are STILL sore. I guess after 1.5 years of not working out, 30 minutes is just fine, lol!

I was panting by 2 minutes in, and wheezing by 20 minutes in, but I did it. The readout the machine gave me said…


But inputting my workout info in to MyFitnessPal (which takes my current weight into account) said that the workout burned around 516 calories. Either way, I know it burned SOMETHING.

So, there you go. I went to the gym, took my daughter to their day care, and the world didn’t explode. Baby step #1 (pardon the pun) to figuring out how to do this thing with a Little Miss to watch after. Brad shouldn’t be working late tonight, so I’m hoping to make another mad dash to get another 30 minutes in there.

Oh! And weigh in was yesterday, and I’m down another 2.6 pounds! As I mentioned my body usually doesn’t drop huge numbers but every 2 weeks, so I am totally happy with that. 12 pounds down…100 to go.

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So, thank you for all who responded on my last post. I realize of course that it probably came off a bit whiny, perhaps a bit “I can’t see the forest for the trees…” -ish. I find myself doing that so much lately. I do get a bit overwhelmed more easily these days. Being new mom, plus new job, plus plus plus. I am finding it easy to fixate and worry about things that are so silly now. Of course I can work out, of course I can make time. When I started this mess two years ago, I didn’t have a gym membership, I had free apps on my phone. I STILL have free apps on my phone, and a few minutes to do them. Even if I can’t make it to a gym but early on the weekends, I can still do that.


You can ask my husband and he would confirm that even though I usually know the answers before I ask, for some reason I find comfort in talking it out.

As for diet-land, I’m still doing well on the eating. I’m doing Fantastic in fact! Water is going great. I am expecting another loss this week, if my pants are any indication, of course I know that it will be a smaller number than last week’s. I recall that as I lose, usually my body exists on a 2 week cycle, where I’ll have a great number one week, and then a small or nonexistent number the next.

And last night, I cooked! As a backstory, I don’t cook. Seriously. It’s something that I’ve always wanted to do, but I’m really not that great at it. I’m a great baker, but I’m sure you can see where that doesn’t really help me. Brad has always been the cook out of the 2 of us, and I’ve been more than happy to let him cook while I take care of the cleaning of the kitchen after. But, he’s having to work late a lot more often, and now that we have Rea, I’d like to start a stronger tradition of us all eating together as a family, rather than me eating some yogurt while he has cereal and we watch TV. It’s easier that way, for sure, but I know that once I’m off of diet and in to “maintenance” land, eating “diet” food isn’t going to cut it when my family wants to have dinner. So, basically what I want to do is once or twice a week find a meal and prepare it – something that I can eat on-plan now, and something that can be incorporated in to our regular meals later when I’m in maintenance mode.

That being said, Brad is a freakin’ picky eater! So that limits a lot of my choices when I’m trying to find something we can all enjoy.

Yesterday, I set out on a mission to find a recipe we would like. I decided to try and think of meals that we’ve enjoyed eating in the past, and also take into account my rudimentary cooking skills. Meatloaf. I can’t really screw up a meatloaf, and Brad has always liked my meatloafs, so I finally found a great recipe for Turkey Meatloaf. I was pretty nervous, because Brad has never been very big on substituting Turkey for anything, but that was also years ago. He and I both have tried to become much for health-conscious since then, so I thought he’d probably give it a try.

Plus I just didn’t tell him what I was making.

I didn’t take any photos, but I should have! I grabbed the ingredients after work while he grabbed Rea from day care, and set to work. And of course, it’s nearly impossible to screw up a meatloaf. It was very delicious! And for only 258 calories, that’s awesome. I added some green beans as a side, and did not end up finishing the portion I had, so it was not only a great way to break up the monotony of what I’d been eating, but for less than what I had planned for calorie wise. It was also nice to sit down and have a proper dinner with Brad, and with Rea in her high chair munching on some broccoli and babbling at us the whole time.

As I mentioned, I want to perhaps try my hand at this cooking mess maybe twice a week – something easy on a work day, and then maybe something more complicated on the weekends.

So, those of you who cook, can you recommend any other great sites that have healthy, EASY recipes that I could try later?

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This week so far is going great for me food-wise. I am able to stay focused on what to eat, what to not eat. The house food isn’t tempting me like it was last week, and getting my water in at work is a breeze (a 2 hour timer on my desktop definitely helps keep me on track!). So as I work and think and read and delve back into this world that I was so familiar with for so long, I keep coming back to one, huge problem.

When/where can I exercise?

Let me explain…when I initially lost my weight in 2011, Brad and I were living in different cities for the sake of careers. I stayed with my brother, but for the first time in my adult life (we married when I was 18), I was a bachelorette. I had no obligations to anyone, and a LOT of free time in a new/old city where I didn’t know many people. Every day I was on task. Wake. Work. Drive Home. Workout. Sleep. Beyond the weekends when Brad and I would see each other, that was it!

Now though…how the heck can I fit in workouts? Brad works late usually 3 out of 5 nights a week, leaving me to care for our 10 month old until he gets home…usually around 8:30 or 9. Then there’s bath-times, feeding time, bedtime…and then a couple of precious hours before we finally fall asleep ourselves, exhausted. So, I have some hard thinking and planning to do.

Our work has trade with a gym here in town, and I also found a membership to the YMCA, which has the town’s only indoor Olympic-sized pool. In 2011 after breaking my foot running, swimming became my thing. I swam in high school, and it became a great workout for me. Now that I’m heavier than I was when I broke my foot, I’m definitely a little worried as far as running goes. Both the gym and the Y have child care services, but I feel awful about picking up my daughter from day care just to take her to ANOTHER day care. Plus, the one night that Brad doesn’t work late and we aren’t usually running around is Thursday, and I enjoy spending our time with Rea together.

I don’t know, I am unsure at what point excuses are valid and when they are simply excuses. I feel that I would be hurting my daughter by taking her from one day care to another, but am I also hurting her by not getting healthier? The time that I would give up spending with Brad would only be temporary, but that’s also time I can spend with Reagan. And she’s!

It’s been suggested that I grab a jogging stroller and take Rea with me, but it’s cold here now. I have a jogging stroller, but I don’t think she’d like it one bit with cold air blowing all over her face. It’s a great option once spring is here.

Of course, there is still one very obvious choice, and one I haven’t even wanted to consider, though it’s been in the back of my mind. Waking up early. Like 5am early. Which I’m sure many of who read this will scoff and laugh and tell me to stop being so lazy – lots of people wake up at 5am. I’ve never been a morning person, to me it is a triumph that I now usually wake up naturally before 8:30am. But to consider waking at 5am, getting dressed and either driving to a gym or walking around the block is horrible. I’m still one to stay up until midnight…believe me I’m also considering working out after 10pm because that would honestly be easier in my mind. I just don’t know what to do here.

Luckily I am focused mainly on food for the immediate future. I knew if I tried to jump into both food and exercise 100% like I tried a few months ago would not go well, so I have a little time to plan. So please, mothers, help me out here? Is there a choice that I’m not considering?


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Eek! 2nd Place!

Hello to the blog-o-sphere! I am still alive and kicking it. Last week was definitely challenging for me, as I’m still not able to kick the last remnants of being sick a couple of weeks ago. I’ve got a cough that’s annoying as all get out, which has made swimming all but impossible. I did manage to make it out one night last week, but paid for it hard the next day. So, I’ve had to avoid swimming until last night, where I got back on track. It’s still a bit harder, but I was able to complete the mile. On top of that, I’ve been craving foods like crazy lately – I must have had something to trigger an insane craving for refined carbs…get behind me, white breads and pastas! You’re not welcome here.

Work has still been extremely crazy, as it seems that will be the status quo for the entire summer while all these simultaneous projects are going on. So, my blog-reading/writing time that I was able to achieve before on down time has been suffering – because believe me, after staring at a computer all day at work, I’m avoiding them at home!

So, I was so incredibly surprised and excited beyond measure to see that I’ve come in 2nd place in Allan’s Phase 5 challenge!! I knew I probably didn’t have a chance of catching up to Elizabeth C ( whoever she is! 😉 ) when I saw the stats last posted a month ago – but I’m so proud to know that at least I was the closest one to her…even if I was still way behind percentage wise. Now I’ve just got to take a pic of my feet on a scale and send it to Allan, Lol!

So, please imaging me sitting here doing the happy dance!

I'm so excited!


(ignore my giant nose please…) 😛

So, for Phase 5, here are my stats:

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Once again – I’m incredibly grateful to Allan for putting all of this together. I’m enjoying Phase 6, even though it’s probably the hardest thing to get used to. My body put out great numbers for 2 weeks in a row, and last week’s number was bleh, so I’m hoping for a good number this week…one that may include a ONE as the first digit. That would make my freakin’ day!

Once again – thank you, Allan – as I told him in an email, I’ve lost more weight in the last 6 months than I ever did in the previous 16 years of trying. For him to put this all together for complete strangers and for FREE speaks truly of his character. I look forward to continuing my journey with him and the other Challengers – because I’m only halfway done!

That being said, I’m the one that freaking put down the fork and got my butt in gear, so now that credit has been given where it’s due – YAY ME! I’M FREAKING AWESOME!!! 😀


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Crazy Monday!

I am running around like a crazy person today, work is slamming me this way and that, so this is my first opportunity to write, and I’m still stuck up here for another 20 minutes.

I don’t have time to do my SFC Challenge post today, so I’ll be a bit late!

I guess the nice thing about being so crazed today is not having to think very much about the food plan change that Allan has me on. I’m sure once I sit still tonight for 5 seconds it will hit me that I’m frakking hungry!

Other than that, just had to share – I went swimming on Saturday, when then have longer hours available, and I swam 3 miles!!! That’s 4800 meters, or 96 laps. I was so happy, even though I was definitely exhausted the rest of the day. Once this stupid boot comes off my broken foot (should be on Friday), I’ll be reintroducing some walking, so that hopefully I can get back on track to reach the mileage goal.

Only one pound down last week – but I had two big losses the weeks before, so I’ll take it! I’m so close to 50 pounds lost I can taste it!

More tomorrow, or maybe later tonight if I can!

End of work day – 5.5 bottles of water in, .5 to go, 2 large tonight! 😀

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It is a beautiful Friday outside my office window today. I don’t have Good Friday off, but I must say that coming to work on a holiday isn’t horrible. My drive time went from 45 min+ to about 20 minutes, so that’s lovely!

AF is packing her bags and headed out of town finally. It’s been hard on me this week exercise wise, but the food is on track, so I’m feeling pretty good about this week over all.

So, as this journey has been progressing I’ve taken some progress photos. This morning I was brave enough to import them into Photoshop and place them side by side. There is definitely some progression happening, but I’m sorry to say I’m still too chicken to post them for the world to see. I know that’s silly, as what better forum to put them in than this…but give me another month or so and I think I’ll be there. 😉

But, all that to say, there is progress happening here, and I am excited to see it. I am so close to being under 200 for the first time that I can remember, and I WANT IT!

No great and fabulous plans for the weekend – Brad and I are staying in our mutual cities this weekend (my mom being in the hospital kind of threw off our schedule), so my plans consist of swimming tomorrow morning, working on a freelance project (finally heard back, I’ve got the job!), and probably going to church with the Olds (my parents) on Sunday. Pretty relaxed and groovy, but that also makes it easy to stick to the plan! Thank goodness for that.

I hope everyone has a great weekend – any fun plans?

2 bottles of water in – 4 to go at work, 2 at home.


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