Well, I am on the road to yet another start.
The quick and dirty history: I’ve always been overweight, I’ve never been at my ideal weight, and I’ve been struggling in earnest over the last 4 years or so to break through some invisible barrier holding me back from accomplishing my final goals.
Fact: My heaviest weight that was recorded on a scale was 276.
Fact: I’ve not been below 200 pounds since before I was 13.
Fact: My obesity causes my PCOS and infertility problems.
Fact: I’m addicted to sugar. In the hidden, soda and refined bread type.
Fact: I am great when I’m on…and my own worst enemy when I’m off.
In December I suffered my first miscarriage from a blighted ovum. This wasn’t weight/health related, as I was in the best shape I have been in years when we finally got pregnant. But the crushing blow to my emotions has led me back to my old staples – sodas and sweets. I won’t lie and say that I’m ready to quit – I am learning that you’re never “ready.” I’ve got a soda sitting next to me right now! But, I’m ready to start to try again. I’m ready to get my body in shape to try and have a baby again.
So, today I start again…or not really start, but get back to where I was. No more wallowing in self-pity and sugar. Sugar is just making it all worse. It’s time to start taking care of myself again.
First step was to join Ruthie’s Cool Runnings group. I have had a on again off again relationship with walking/jogging for years now…it’s time to stop being scared and go for it! Even if I have to walk a lot of this, at least I’m moving!
So there is my first post. My name is Amanda, I’m 250+ pounds, and I’m going to do a half marathon before my 30th birthday on November 17th…and try to get preggo along the way. 🙂
Oh, and the source of the name of this blog is a song that I heard on the radio a couple of weeks ago – and I found it really comforting: